Why do you try to convince me that life is so much better out there when you don’t even believe it yourself?
Why do you try to persuade me that it is so much easier out there, that I can be happier out there, when I can see that it’s not easy for you, that it’s not making you happy?
Why do you tell me that I am lying to myself, that I am working for something that is unattainable, too ‘fairy-tale-ish’ , when you lie to yourself, and you work for something even more ‘fairy-tale-ish’?
Why do you tell me that no one here really cares about me, that they don’t really love me, when everyday they prove to me by their actions how much they love, and care about me? Why do you tell me that it’s no use, that all my efforts are for nothing, that no matter how hard I try I won’t be able to make a difference, when I can see that it really is worth something, that I am making a difference?
Why do you say that it is ‘close-minded’ of me for not wanting to try out another–your– lifestyle, when I see what it has done to you?
You say you believe in me, and in my choices for my life, but why don’t you believe in my choice to give my life in the Family?
I love you, and pray for you, but if your life has just disillusioned you, and turned you into the liar that you now are, then I really don’t want it.
Jewel is a member of the Family International.